Form 1 M

I am teaching 5 classes of form 1. They are so different compared to the form 4 & form 5 students in Sabah. They are smart but something are worrying. Most of the times, I noticed girl start to show interest to the boy but the most of the boys still enjoying playing. My class monitor will come to inform me the attendance of the class daily. However, she love to see me in one particular class recently. I start to wonder which boy she interest there? One of the boy even make a remark she always come and he think she likes someone there. Wow! that obvious. But how o tell her that you are too young to fall in love now. Let it be? Such a good girl and let her lost in puppy love? This teacher in dilema. Why it won't just as easy as 1+1 = 2 in my maths subject.
Few boys in my class are the only child in the family. They are so excited to have so many friends in class. They love to punch, fight and act like small children. Most of the times, parent will blame teacher for not taking care of the students yet I noticed parent just like to please their child and some of the children can't even show a normal manners.

Good Leader

Why our country lack of good leader? This is the cause the people life is getting harder. We can see so many ministers claimed that they are graduate but they didn't really sincerely want to help the people and the country. They are so selfish and only think about themselves and position. I just pray that my Father in heaven will open their mind, mouth and heart. Think for the people. They are sufferring.

Closer......

Now is about 34 weeks. Time is getting closer to delivery. Well, I really feel afraid but I knew I need to be strong. It is hard for me to move around now. It is getting harder to teach in class and control the student. It is getting harder to go toilet and I start to got piles.

7 months

So fast already 7 months pregnant. My tummy become bigger each day. Feeling excited and scare at the same time. I am not good in going through pain. Oh I couldn't imagine I have to go through labour pain.
Life become harder now with the oil price increasing. Some more we were asked to go back on Saturday for courses. What happen to their mind? They ask us to save yet ask us to work on Saturday. I had to drive so far...... For a 7 months pregnant lady. I can't see the benefit.

Tuision or School?

I remember I used to attend tuision class so that I could get extra knowledge that I miss in school. The purpose is to help me to catch up my study. However, I notice my students now are very different. For them, tuision is more important because their parent pay. Some of them even asked me to solve problem given by their tuision teacher. Then what is our rule as normal school teacher? They don't respect us because they knew they could learn from tuision. Then why are we exist?

Five Months

So fast, I already entered my five months pregnancy. Can feel myself getting heavier each day. I went for my check up on monday. The nurse said I need to double my iron tablet dose due to my low red cell. I don't really like iron because it cause me constipate. My colleague was making fun of me; how come a teacher will lack of blood which suppose to be unhealthy eating pattern. I also don't know. I only know I got headache all the time now. I ate a lot too. The nurse said I put on 2kg which is too much. Then, apa terjadi??????????? My HM didn't fully support my application to Nilai school. I got so lost sometime. There are so many decision to make which is my weak point.
May my God want me to learn something. I think He want me to be positive and trust Him. All sunshine and no rain make a desert.

Angry!!!

My 1 kemboja student W really made me mad. He refused to do his work some more show me his temper. Hopeless! My 2 Anggerik girl C also the same. She shouted at me in the class when I wrongly pronounce her name. So pathetic. I can still feel my anger until today. I don't know what effect it will cause my baby but I just too mad with them. A brunch of spoilt and rude kids. The parent fail........ I am thinking may be I shall sue the parent and them. Teach them a lesson.
Ha...... Is just a illusion. I won't do it. Let it be!!! Sometime just submit to God when we don't know what else to do. I just prayed that God will take away my anger and grand me more patient.

Morning Sickness!

My morning sickness started in the middle of 1st month and getting worst in the 2nd month. Funny, it just a feeling. I hated all kind of smell even my husband colonge. I can't cook, I refused to do anything. I hated my work and the journey of 45km to school. I hated everyone that fail to understand my condition including the headmaster. However, there are people who said I am spoilt. My hubby also said is pychology effect. Is it? I didn't know. I just want to sleep and keep myself away from everybody. I easily cry and angry. What make the feeling? When I saw others morning sickness, I don't understand but now I knew.
Now, slowly enter fourth month. Suddenly, all uneasiness gone. Funny again! Is the feeling. Now I getting bigger and bigger. Me or the baby. I wonder is the fat or the baby growing on my abdoment. Can't wait to know is boy or girl. But little fellow just to shy to show it. I just pray that he or she will be mentally and physical healthy.

Laughing!

One of my favourite photo. Justin and his brother Gabriel. Gabriel like to laugh until can't see his eye. He actually a handsome little boy.